Have you ever wanted to ask God for something but you were afraid He wouldn’t answer, so you stopped short? Have you ever asked Him in a way that would let Him off the hook if you didn’t get the answer you wanted?
I did that today…
I was at a conference I had been invited to by a friend who was one of the speakers. There were two baskets of goodies that they were giving away. They were full of all kinds of fun stuff including a book my friend had written and another book by the conference coordinator. I wanted one of those baskets…really bad. I thought for a minute about asking God for it, but, well, what if someone else needed it more than me. That was a noble, selfless thought, right? Wrong! I didn’t really want anyone else to have that basket, but I was afraid to just ask God for it. I didn’t want Him to tell me no. I didn’t want to be disappointed.
So, I told Him I’d like to have it, but didn’t REALLY ask Him for it and then I proceeded to ask Him to just give them to whoever in the room really needed them. I asked Him to give them to whoever in the room needed a touch from Him. And then I busied my mind with distractions…and they had to repeat my name when it was called for the drawing. 🙂
Thanks God for the basket of goodies! Thank you for answering me even thru my doubt and unbelief filled prayers. Thank you for KNOWING what I needed this weekend and answering the whimpering, doubt filled cries of my heart. Thank you for being concerned about the big things and the little things like baskets o’ goodies.