Thankful Thursday: Paying Forward

Do you ever find yourself wanting to hit the rewind button?  The problem is…you really can’t rewind life.  Maybe it is helpful to know how you got to where you are, but you can’t do anything to redo any of those things.  You can’t relive a single moment, day, month or year.  It is impossible.  YOU can’t redeem the lost time…no matter how hard you try or how bad you want to.

They call it Throw Back Thursday.  It is fun to see pictures of days gone by that people post.  Fond memories of the past in their lives that they choose to share.  Silly pictures that make them laugh.  Moments many of them wish they could relive even just for a moment.  I have plenty of those snapshots in my heart.  I have plenty of those memories I long to relive.  I have some I’d like to erase.  It’s funny that most of those snapshots don’t make it onto people’s Throw Back Thursday posts.  At least not unless someone else is posting them….

Do you ever notice how quick you are to delete those photos of yourself that you don’t want anyone to see and how much fun it is to hang onto the ones of others that you might be able to use to your advantage at some point in the future?  Do you ever do that with people’s mistakes?  Do you ever try to cover yours but expose others?  Or forgive yourself and believe for change, but not give that same grace and mercy to others?  Do you ever look back on your life at the stupid things you did and thank God for his grace and mercy towards you and then forget that He offers the same thing to your friends and family and kids?  No?  Oh, well….never mind.

Maybe I’ll just go look thru my photos and remember the days gone by and the mercies of God in my life and ask Him to show ME how to offer more of His grace and mercy to those around me who could use a double portion of it right now.




Cool your pipes…He’s got this!!

I’m not sure what the most famous scripture in the bible is regarding worry and anxiety, but I’d be willing to bet (if you can do that with scripture) that most people have read or heard this one at some point in their lives…

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. – Philippians 4:6-7

Or maybe I’m familiar with that scripture because I NEED that scripture.  I need it every day!  I find myself needing it a whole lot right now.  Maybe it is the season of life I am in.  This one seems to find me defaulting to worry and anxiety a lot more than I would like to admit.  I think unfamiliar territory and change in general has always been one of those places for me.  It has always been one of those things that can knock me around.  It points to a place inside of me that I’d like to pretend doesn’t exist, but it sure seems to rear its ugly head when I can’t see the future and the least little blip on the screen looks less that what I want today or the future to look like.  It sure likes to come knocking when I find myself dealing with situations that I have absolutely no control over.

It points to places of unbelief in the goodness of God…bottom line.  It points to a lack of trust in Him to do all he has promised in his word He will do.  It points to a bigger faith in the power of darkness than the power of light.  OUCH!!!

The other day a couple of dear friends spoke a word of life and light into my life…”You are more than a conqueror act like it.”  They said other things too.  They reminded me that God’s work and words are not contingent on ANYTHING.  They reminded me that I am a daughter of the MOST HIGH, NOT an orphan.  You know, little kids who are confident in the love and protection of their parents don’t worry.  Have you ever noticed that?

I’ve been spending some time in the Psalms.  They have always been my go to place in times of despair and worry and…uh…fretting.  I recently heard someone refer to them as a reflection of a mans journey with God.  I decided to read them with that in mind.  I asked a friend what she thought of that assessment and some other observations I was making about them and she provided an even deeper observation I needed.  She pointed out that David knew how to command his soul to line up with Kingdom reality.  (That wasn’t her exact words, but it’s how my heart translated it)  Anyone who knows anything about David’s life knows he wasn’t successful in commanding his soul to line up 100% of the time.  But apparently perfection isn’t the point since he was referred to as a man after God’s own heart by God himself.

22 After removing Saul, he made David their king. God testified concerning him: ‘I have found David son of Jesse, a man after my own heart; he will do everything I want him to do.’ – Acts 13:22

So, as I’m reading yesterday I come across a verse about fretting…

Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret—it leads only to evil. – Psalm 37:8 NIV

Of course I had to look it up in a couple of other versions and was amused by this translation…

Bridle your anger, trash your wrath,
    cool your pipes—it only makes things worse. – Psalm 37:8 The Message

So, today, I will cool my pipes.  I will place my faith back where it is supposed to be.  I will fix my eyes back on Him and his purpose and His provision and His promises.  I will live the life of a secure daughter of the King of Kings…no matter what is going on around me that I can’t control.