Motive

What motivates you? Is it love? Why do you serve others? Is it love? Why do you do all the things you do including those things that seem really meaningless like cleaning and vacuuming? Is it love?

Those are the questions I woke up to Friday morning…before I spoke to anyone.

Lord, show me how to love every minute of every day. Show me how to walk in love with every step I take. Purify my thoughts and my motives so that only Your love propels me forward.

Scattered

Have you ever considered who or what you are putting your trust in? Who or what do you trust to protect you? Who or what do you trust with your most important decisions? Who or what guides your steps? Who or what would you trust with your most valuable possessions? Who would you trust to take care of the people most important to you?

Do you trust Siri to get you to your destination?

Do you trust the 24 hour News Channel to keep you up to date on world events so you can protect your family?

Do you trust the financial institution to make good decisions with your money so you actually have some when you are ready to retire?

Do you trust your pastor to tell you the truths that will save your soul?

Do you trust the interpretation of scripture you have grown up with to be THE right answer to all of life’s theological questions?

Do you trust your children’s teachers to teach them the things that will make them succeed in life?

Do you trust your friends to meet all your relational needs?

Do you trust your family to meet all your expectations?

Do you trust that cell phone to protect your child when they are out of your site?

Do you trust that cell phone to protect you when you are out and about?

Do you trust Facebook to build and maintain connections in your life?

Do you have a trusted book or author to teach you important, life altering truths?

Do you have a favorite ministry that you put all your faith in?

Do you trust yourself to get the job done right?

I recently went on an event where I was encouraged to unplug for almost a week. I decided to not only unplug but to travel without my phone. This event included an 8 hour adventure into the great outdoors alone with God. My youngest was very disturbed that I would wander into the woods all alone without a lifeline…cell phone. She wanted to know how I would get help if something happened to me.

I obviously returned from that adventure no thanks to the wonders of technology. I also found out a little about trust while I was there. I found out why there was so much internal chaos and tension in so many areas of my life even with television and books and Facebook and cell phones and friends and pastors and ministries to manage all the things in my life. I had plenty of trust…but it was just┬ámisplaced.

I wasn’t trusting God. I wasn’t believing He was in charge. I wasn’t believing He would do all He has promised. What is the opposite of belief? Yup, that was me. WAS!

WAS…and then I came home and got BUSY!

Yesterday, right before I started writing this post, God nudged me and reminded me I was doing it again. I know it was Him because it wasn’t condemning. It was gentle. He was asking me how I had been spending my time. He was asking me where I had been putting my trust. My anxiety was up and my countenance was low and He asked me to stop and look at Him. He asked me to stop and get back together with Him. He asked me to put down everything in my hands and just spend time with Him. He asked me to get out of the 4 or 5 books I’m in the middle of reading and get into the one He wrote for me.

And then He said it again thru the words of a preacher that He knew I’d be hearing last night. He confirmed what He had said just in case I wasn’t paying attention the first time. This was good. It was good because I have a track record that God is changing. I don’t know what your experience of hearing God is, but I tend to hear SLOWWWWLY. It isn’t uncommon for me to finally clue in to what He has been saying on about the 3rd day and the 3rd or 4th attempt to get my attention. But this time I knew what He was saying when he said it and He provided a really quick confirmation that it is important.

He is building my trust in Him, but He needs my attention turned to Him to do that. It is no wonder I feel so unsettled and so scattered with my trust thrown around in so many places other than the One place with any power.