Scattered

Have you ever considered who or what you are putting your trust in? Who or what do you trust to protect you? Who or what do you trust with your most important decisions? Who or what guides your steps? Who or what would you trust with your most valuable possessions? Who would you trust to take care of the people most important to you?

Do you trust Siri to get you to your destination?

Do you trust the 24 hour News Channel to keep you up to date on world events so you can protect your family?

Do you trust the financial institution to make good decisions with your money so you actually have some when you are ready to retire?

Do you trust your pastor to tell you the truths that will save your soul?

Do you trust the interpretation of scripture you have grown up with to be THE right answer to all of life’s theological questions?

Do you trust your children’s teachers to teach them the things that will make them succeed in life?

Do you trust your friends to meet all your relational needs?

Do you trust your family to meet all your expectations?

Do you trust that cell phone to protect your child when they are out of your site?

Do you trust that cell phone to protect you when you are out and about?

Do you trust Facebook to build and maintain connections in your life?

Do you have a trusted book or author to teach you important, life altering truths?

Do you have a favorite ministry that you put all your faith in?

Do you trust yourself to get the job done right?

I recently went on an event where I was encouraged to unplug for almost a week. I decided to not only unplug but to travel without my phone. This event included an 8 hour adventure into the great outdoors alone with God. My youngest was very disturbed that I would wander into the woods all alone without a lifeline…cell phone. She wanted to know how I would get help if something happened to me.

I obviously returned from that adventure no thanks to the wonders of technology. I also found out a little about trust while I was there. I found out why there was so much internal chaos and tension in so many areas of my life even with television and books and Facebook and cell phones and friends and pastors and ministries to manage all the things in my life. I had plenty of trust…but it was just misplaced.

I wasn’t trusting God. I wasn’t believing He was in charge. I wasn’t believing He would do all He has promised. What is the opposite of belief? Yup, that was me. WAS!

WAS…and then I came home and got BUSY!

Yesterday, right before I started writing this post, God nudged me and reminded me I was doing it again. I know it was Him because it wasn’t condemning. It was gentle. He was asking me how I had been spending my time. He was asking me where I had been putting my trust. My anxiety was up and my countenance was low and He asked me to stop and look at Him. He asked me to stop and get back together with Him. He asked me to put down everything in my hands and just spend time with Him. He asked me to get out of the 4 or 5 books I’m in the middle of reading and get into the one He wrote for me.

And then He said it again thru the words of a preacher that He knew I’d be hearing last night. He confirmed what He had said just in case I wasn’t paying attention the first time. This was good. It was good because I have a track record that God is changing. I don’t know what your experience of hearing God is, but I tend to hear SLOWWWWLY. It isn’t uncommon for me to finally clue in to what He has been saying on about the 3rd day and the 3rd or 4th attempt to get my attention. But this time I knew what He was saying when he said it and He provided a really quick confirmation that it is important.

He is building my trust in Him, but He needs my attention turned to Him to do that. It is no wonder I feel so unsettled and so scattered with my trust thrown around in so many places other than the One place with any power.

Partnering for the Dance

danceWhat comes to mind when you are asked to partner with someone? Depending on who it is and what they want me to do it may make me either very happy or a bit agitated. I may be excited or even a little afraid.  There are some things I would prefer to do alone. I’ve always preferred jobs where I could do my work with little supervision. Tell me what you need done and point me in the general direction and I’ll do the rest. I like being trusted to take care of the job without a lot of hovering over me.

But there are times I dream of partnering with someone and the thought of it becoming a reality gives me hope for bigger things. There are people I admire in life who I dream of partnering with to do something together in the Kingdom. It would be so cool to be trusted to work with them. I’ve had that opportunity on a few occasions and it was awesome. Partnering with my best peeps in ministry has always been very fulfilling to me. Partnering with the people I hold up as spiritual giants would be incredible. I would feel honored and trusted.  I’m sure I’d also be a little scared.  What if I don’t measure up?  What if I fail them?  What if I don’t have what it takes?  What if they see something in me that I really can’t live up to?  What if I get in the middle of this thing and they leave me high and dry and I fall flat on my face?

What would happen if the God of the Universe asked you to partner with Him? What kind of honor would that be? How would you respond? What kind of emotion does that stir up in you when you consider such a possibility?  Would you be excited?  Would you be scared?  Would you feel honored?  Would you go for it or would you hesitate?

The truth is…He DOES want to partner with us.

I was reminded of that a few days ago when I mentioned a ministry to a friend of mine that I was excited about exploring.  I mentioned in the conversation that I was looking forward to the possibility of doing something FOR God that was bigger than me or anything I had ever done before.  Without any hesitation she reminded me that I wouldn’t be doing anything FOR Him…I would be doing it WITH Him.  Any ministry that I do in the Kingdom that He has given me to do is only possible in partnership WITH Him.  He is the power source!  He is the foundation!  He doesn’t NEED me, He chooses me.  He accomplishes His will in a given situation thru me not because of me.

I’d like to think that if I heard a direct word from God about a place of ministry WITH Him that I would jump on it.  I’d like to tell you that I always listen to His calling and desire to use me in His Kingdom.  I’d like to tell you that I always trust Him to follow thru on His side of things.  If I could tell you that then I would have a whole lot more spiritual fruit to show you.

The truth is…I get really excited about the IDEA of partnering with GOD…and then I get terrified.  Why on earth would I be terrified to partner with the Creator?  Why would my knees shake at the possibility of doing something for Him that He calls me to do?  He moves mountains.  He heals the sick.  He makes the lame to walk and the blind to see.  He sets the captive free.  Why would I tremble at the thought of following thru with HIM as my partner in ministry?

I have a few ideas…fear…pride…doubt…unbelief…YUCK!!!

I’ve also got a few other ideas…looking past what is right in front of me…looking for a bigger, better, grander calling…desiring something that He isn’t calling me to right now.

YUP!  Sometimes I think we miss partnering with God in the everyday things of life because we are looking right past the thing or person He places in front of us.  I think we are looking for some BIG adventure when all He wants is our life.  All He wants is an awareness of Him in the everyday situations and conversations with the people He places in our lives and along our path.  I think I’ve missed the “every day” opportunities that would flow out of who I am in Him and the “bigger” opportunities because I was too busy “looking” for something else.  And unfortunately I’ve missed them because of any one or combination of the yucky four above.

So…what do we do?  Do we throw in the towel and give up all together?  Do we say we missed it so that’s it…it’s all over?  Do we decide His calling must not be for us because we’ve proven we don’t really have what it takes?  We could do that, but I don’t want to.  I’ve seen what lives look like that have given up on the calling God had for them.  I’ve seen what it looks like when a person stops believing there is hope of being used by God for a greater purpose.  I don’t want one of those lives.  I don’t want to live a life just short of partnering with Jesus.

I want to be used by Him.  I want to work WITH Him.  I want to partner with Him in the Kingdom.  I want His power to flow thru me.  I want to live as His daughter and join Him in the Father/Daughter dance called life in the Kingdom.