I realized the other day that if life really is a journey and every part of it is meant to prepare you for the next, then I need to take a look at what God has been saying to me to ready me for the next part of my journey. I realized that God has been preparing me for the place I am at today over the past few years, months and even weeks. I was reminded that I’ve been logging a good part of this journey right here on my blog, so there might just be something important I need to revisit and refresh my mind and heart on. I recalled a conversation where I was encouraged to use my blog to process my journey. While I hope that those who read it are encouraged and challenged in some personal way, it is a way I have chosen to make sense of much of my pondering on this journey. I realized today that I’ve been blogging just over a year, so there is likely more than a few nuggets in here that I need to latch onto for my present walk.
After a particularly low day on the emotional roller coaster I have found myself on, I was advised to stop trying to fight against the lies creating the roller coaster of emotions and live above them. That is when I recalled this post and decided to see what I had written that might be of benefit to me as I attempt to rise above the emotions of my current situation. I am entering into a new season of life where I can’t see exactly what is ahead of me. I suppose none of us can ever really see what is ahead of us, but sometimes we have a better idea than other times. My hope is that great things are ahead for me and my family, but they are still in the future and very much unknown. I don’t know what those things will look like. I don’t know what my part to play will be. Sure, I know what my part to play at home will be, but beyond that, I don’t know and I very much want to, but I can’t.
I can sit down and wallow in the unknown. I can pout about being in an “in between” place. I can spiral into a pit of despair. I can play patty cake with these dumb emotions. OR, I can allow the strength that is within me to rise up and carry me to a place that I am already seated with HIM and allow him to work out all the details down here. That is how I can rise above the emotions…seated right there with HIM. Truly allowing HIM to work this all out while I simply rest and relax knowing he already has it all worked out if I will just keep following him and seeking Him and choosing to trust him.